Yes, yes, I know I'm a slacker. I'm sorry folks. I just feel too
busy, lazy and not motivated enough to write lately, but since I just
had my LAST talk I feel like I HAVE to.
I will also shortly go over the fifth talk in this post.
Fifth talk
This
was the talk after the psychological test. My psych discussed the
results with me, which weren't very exciting. Basically she said I am
mentally healthy, not delusional, and most likely don't have ADHD or
autism (unlike what I expected).
Of course this is just a basic
and rather short test and cannot signify as an actual diagnosis or
'proof', but they didn't feel like they had to investigate it
Basically
the only thing which came out was that I clearly have gender dysphoria
and feel bad about the female attributes of my body. (wow, no shit!)
Appearantly some people were asked to draw some things, and my psych was rather disappointed they didn't ask me, out if all people, since I'm in art academy. I also thought that was quite a shame, as it would have been fun, haha.
For the rest we discussed the last bit of my life story, and I felt like she really understood me and what went through me throughout my life.
I left with a positive feeling, and the more time progresses, the happier I am with the psych switch which happened earlier.
Sixth talk
I knew we would be discussing 'sexuality' this time (whoo-hoo), which also went rather well. I will not share everything we discussed because that would be awkward and weird, but it wasn't as bad as I expected. We also went into a bit more depth on my current wishes regarding operations (a bit early, since the first one will take more than a year from starting T, but I get they want to have an indication early on), and if I have a child wish and if I would want a biological kid. (yeah, of course. But going through pregnancy or egg cell harvest isn't worth it for me)
She said I was well informed and had done good research and thought over everything very well, which she saw as a positive thing.
Then after this she closed her notebook and said we had discussed everything and wanted to wrap it up and scedule me for being discussed with the team. I was pleasantly surprised by this, as I expected there to be one more talk.
Sadly the news if I have green light or not will have to wait till 8th of June. At that same day I have my next appointment with my psych, and then she will personally deliver me the news and plan an appointment with the endocrinologist.
She couldn't tell me how long it would take till I would get T, though she claimed it would be highly unlikely to get it right after the endo appointment, and said the first appointment was just a basic intake and there would be more tests after.
I was kinda dissappointed by this, but other trangsuys I spoke with said they got T right after the first appointment, before the blood tests and DEXA scan. I really hope this will be the case with me as well, as otherwise I fear it might take many more months... (and you might say that's easy, but it's even harder to wait when you are SO close!)
But yeah, nevertheless, pretty exciting news! I'm getting closer and closer... it almost feels surreal. I definitely know it will feel surreal when I get my first shot.
