Another thing I feel like sharing is that I cut off my dreads. All of them!
I feel sad about it, and I miss them, but on the other hand was is necessary for me to move on and 'grow' as a person. I know one thing, and that's that I'll get new ones once on T. Together with an awesome goatee!
I really had to feel what it's like NOT to have dreads though, and they actually WERE hindering my passing quite a bit. I know this, as since I cut them off I've been gendered correctly FIVE times and gotten numerous "WTF" stares in the women's toilets (made me feel quite uneasy, but they are a good sign, so I'm also sort of happy with them), while before; nothing. Not a SINGLE woman looked like I was out of place, and NO ONE ever said "young man" or "lad" or "him". One downside is that when I talk most people are like "Ohh, sorry miss!" (stupid people! Don't they see they did it RIGHT!? >:-I)
But I at least don't get odd glares when buying men's clothes or products anymore. I also think I could try to pass in the men's toilet, as not a single man would talk in there anyway, and if I just stick to the 'men's restroom etiquette' chances are they'll see me as a young guy. Nothing else. Chances are I will even get LESS stares than in the women's toilets!
It makes me sad though, that my voice is the breaking point right now. I was so naive to hope I could fully pass pre-T (how lucky would I be then, lol!), but of course I don't. And it will take many years before I can get on T, and will be able to live as a man full-time.
But yeah, it's worth it. Just keep going on. Never stop fighting for your true self!
P.S. for anyone who wants to see how my dreads looked from start to end, I have kept a timeline at a site called Dreadlock Truth, here it is; http://www.dreadlocktruth.com/dtforums/30/9113
Feel free to comment on what I wrote, or even just on my dreads ;)
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